Well we are home safe and sound now.. Getting back to the routine and daily hustle and bustle. It took us three full days of driving, fifteen hours a day morning to night, but it was actually a fun adventure. Not dangerous as I had pictured and actually not too tiring. Even Giselley belly did great.. She just cruised in her car seat most of the time.
It is nice to be home, very nice. Being away gave me a fresh perspective on my home and my country. I appreciate all of the things I took for granted so much more now. When I left for this trip I knew it would be growthful and that I would learn alot. What I didn't realize is that I would be learning more about myself than others or a new place. I learned where my strenths and weaknesses are when being thrust into a new environment with new people. Before I thought, "Man, I am a world traveler. That is my path." ;) Well actually, yes and no. I do like being in a new place, with different culture and all that. But I don't like living cramped or 'roughing it' as much as I thought I might. I like comfort. No suprise, I think every human does. But take me out of my comfort zone and I'm a little more edgy than I would sometimes like to admit. And that's okay. It's no judgement on me, it's a recognition. And a bit humorous.
I also learned alot about boundaries. I learned that I was blessed with a good amount of patience, but also with a strong will and intuition. And as much as I respect different paths and traditions of life, I respect my own. I am not closed to learning, I am open. I desire to learn and enjoy to learn. But in respecting others I also expect the same respect for myself. Maybe this is where unconditional love comes in, or unconditional acceptance. To respect someone even though they might not know how to give you the same kind of respect. I realize that. But as a woman and as a mother I also feel strong about how my family is shaped and the underlying, subconscious messages that we pass to eachother throughout our lives and relationships. I want my daughter to spread her wings as fly as she grows into her own person because we loved her so much and gave her the encouragement and tools that she needed to be independently marvelous. I want my husband and I to continue to nurish and grow our love, strength and commitment in this union through our affection, respect and adoration of eachother. Each person and each family has beautiful and strong qualities and those are the one's that I want to focus on and grow within myself and my family. The other qualities that don't suit me or do me any good I wish to realize, accept and lovingly release into the ethers, because I don't need them around.
So in bringing together hearts, minds and very different cultures I am finding a balance that I'm sure every merging couple experiences. As a mother, everyday, I am learning to trust myself, to take suggestion as it comes with a grain of salt, and to laugh as much as possible. Because if I don't laugh I might just cry :) Kind of tired these days.. But I'll leave all those details for my mama blog :) The important thing is that we are surrounded by family and friends who love us. And although they may all show it in different ways, that is what makes the beautiful fabric of life. And for this I am thankful. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
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